Fly

A lot of things in life never make sense, a lot of things we do in life never seem to make sense.. but later on when you have put the puzzle together and look at the whole picture it is amazing what the picture tells you and you beginning to realise that putting the puzzle together, had to come with difficulty, confession and trust in your self, that the pieces you were laying down, would eventually tell the whole story.
The day that, i picked up the phone to call u, and some how got talking about why things had been done in the way they had been and in some way vent my anger at a situation , that i think had been sitting at the back of my head for a while, as promises had been made to me, that have never been fulfilled. i never thought i would get the negative response have been getting in the past few mths.
As friends, i think you should get as good as you give, thus, if you feel that you are not getting what you give i feel you can express the way you are feeling. i feel i had issues with two major things, maybe said in the wrong way, but i need to put across the way i was feeling. Being humans, sometimes when things are said, no matter how they are said we tend to take it with in our stride or ignore it, either nor , leaving us to react how it suits us.
You know i have been having major issues with the way you have treated the whole situation, as i feel that our really great friendship has been compromised by me raising issues i had problems with and i have battled with my conscience, did i do the right thing, how i am i going to get you back.
Saturday night , i called you again in my drunk state.... i just wanted to chat to you as i had missed you and to try again get our friendship back, again my hopes were dashed as you didn't pick up, i cried my self to sleep, not because you didn't pick up, but because the puzzle that had been laid down in front of me had been completed, as the picture it told was of a friendship that had ended....